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March 1935
I don't think R is any good at diagnosis. The old Doctor was the man for that. I would define R's method as "book work + imaginative experimentation". (It is a confidential estimate)
But I really wonder why the Divine can't do something! You said people were saved from death by prayer, and here the Divine himself can't save this fellow from pain and suffering
Such questions are all "my eye".
N got remarkable response from the Divine, then why not N. P. ?
Every man does not get response, and every man does not give response.
K has a thick crop of eruptions on the face, and temperature. I was thinking it may be measles. You seem to think it may be due to dengue. But rashes are not so numerous in dengue.
Don't know. Mother was thinking of X's case more than K 's. These do not seem to be the characteristic signs that are precursors of measles. Anyhow we shall have to see and if it's anything, must be careful it doesn't spread. Especially one must be careful to keep to the rule "Don't give purgatives in high fever unless you are sure of the nature of the fever".
S's case is really puzzling. It does not seem to be apoplexy since there is no paralysis nor is the pressure high.
It seems to me a congestion such as comes at his age to people who live well (S is a good eater). Perhaps it might have been worse if he had not bled.
Anyway there doesn't seem to be any immediate danger, is there? Page - 181 Probably not people carry on for many years like that I mean with that tendency. Provided it does not turn to real apoplexy.
N .P. has got a complicated eye trouble. It looks like iritis.
I think you had better ask N if he is willing to show his eyes to R's ophthalmologist for diagnosis only. It is evidently difficult to act without knowing definitely what the matter is: without any doubt. March 18, 1935 K s case seems more like dengue than measles, for all symptoms are against measles.
It can't be measles in that case.
S's case could be a mild apoplexy from old age due to arterial degeneration, though no definite physical signs are evident.
Certainly there was no arterial haemorrhage. S denies any congestion of brain he says there was no giddiness, but describes a vital attack and a fall due to a physical movement of his own to avoid it his head falling on something projecting caused the bleeding. He says the congestion is a legend.
K sent me a scavenger with a big swelling above the left clavicle. We suspect some growth, cancer or glandular swelling. He won't go to the hospital. K thinks we are not responsible in any way, but I thought I would let you know.
We are responsible only for accidents during work. If a fellow gets a glandular or other swelling or a cancer, we have nothing to do with it. No treatment must be given if he asks, show him the road to the hospital.
Ms is not a pimple. It looks like a Myobeian [meibomian] cyst. Page - 182 What the hell is that? I don't know bad Greek. March 19, 1935 We were surprised not to receive any answer from you to R's letter. He says he was late.
He is always. He sent me two letters (which I read together) repeating the same things with different amplification.
N. P. was feeling better at 5 p.m. He felt as if you were working within his eye and inferred that perhaps you were reading his letter at that moment. It was after all, an illusion.
Only a wrong inference.
What is really this impression? Is there no truth in it?
There was truth in his feeling of the Force working but his inference was an inference and not an experience. There is no infallibility in experiences.
Everyone thinks that as soon as you read our letters we get the necessary help and not before that. In my own case I got relief only after Mother's touch at Pranam or after I had written my whole trouble. Prayers are not heard, then?
It depends on how far the inner being is awake otherwise one needs a physical avalambana.Ή There are some people who get the relief only after we read a letter, others get it immediately they write or before it has reached us or after it has reached but before we have read. Others get it simply by referring the whole matter to us mentally. Idiosyncrasies!
I send you a diagram of M' s condition, drawn by Nishikanta. I hope the "hell" is clear now! Meibomian cyst is an enlargement of one of the glands in the inner coat of the eye-lid.
Ή Support. Page - 183 This is more intelligible. You haven't explained your bad Greek, through myoboemianΉ which seems to have something to do with a mystically silent shout.
I find many things which are recommended or given for diseases, are not much favoured by the Divine. So I think it's better to ask your opinion before any drug is given.
There are some remedies which cure the disease temporarily but are bad for the system like quinine others which suit some people but harm others, others which have a good effect one way, but a bad one in another way. That is why Mother does not like them to be used indiscriminately. Some she disapproves of altogether, e.g. quinine. She also disapproves of the excessive use of purgatives.
My system has been rather supersaturated with medicine and reports. If you could release that type-script document without any inconvenience to your eye, I can recharge the battery.
Release? I am seeking for mukti² myself.
N .P. is much better as regards pain. But I wonder why atropine increased the pain as it is the drug indicated for iritis. And why did you ask it to be stopped?
Mother felt that the medicines were causing trouble you yourself saw that atropine increased the pain.
How did you find S at Pranam?
He was all right except for a little weakness.
M showed me his eye with a pea-sized swelling inside yellowish.
Ή It is mock-Greek, a play on the word "meibomian", which is a legitimate medical term and is not Greek. Myo in Greek means "shut","mute" or "mystic"; "boē" means "cry" or "shout". ² Liberation, release. Page - 184 It is a swelling, not a pimple? Try hot boric solution wash for the present. March 20, 1935 The Ost [ ophthalmologist ] said that M's condition has improved. He has advised to give salicylates for past rheumatism. .
All right salicylate him as much as the Ost likes.
Queer! one has to be dosed not only for present and future but past ailments. Medicine like the Brahman transcends Time.
An inner unquiet is running for some days. It seems as if I would mightily like to have something, but don't get it, as if it is around me, but I don't have it! Mother's writing on the forehead [5.3.35} doesn't manifest! And what about the universal? No sign of its opening its door to this poor fellow! Meditation, concentration, aspiration everything is gasping! Let me have some stimulant drops, please.
Stop gasping and "smile a little". Well, if it is around you, it is bound to manifest you have only to keep quiet and open yourself pleasantly.
You are seeking for mukti!! I thought you never cared for it.
That mukti I got ages ago without my wanting it.
B 's upper eye-lid is congested. Eye drops?
If he wants drops, drop but nothing startling or violent, please. Mother suggests camphor lotion, but she does not know the proportion and it must be light. I suppose you have no "codex" book of ordinances? 21.3.35 Nirod You will have to go and see S he is not quite well and also there is some difficulty about the hair over the place of the wound. Page - 185 Do what is necessary but, by the way, don't auscult; it made them nervous last time. SRI AUROBINDO P.S. Also take care not to look anxious; it upsets them still more!! March 21, 1935 S is showing signs of cerebral irritation. It is strange that I did not think of the head injury, neither did you draw my attention to it.
The Mother got the suggestion several times, but she did not feel entitled to interfere as she is "not a doctor" and the suggestion was not scientific or rational, but only an "unbased" intuition. The rights of reason and science, you know, are not to be trifled with! Hail, Reason, holy Light! etc. But it is a great pity she did not act on her intuition; she asked whether it was not necessary to open the wound and see, but Pavitra told her Andre had not found it necessary as there was no pain. But evidently something went seriously wrong.
Mother, thinking of this case and one or two others, I feel ashamed of my poor knowledge and experience. I was wondering how I would show my face to you at Pranam.
Cheer up. And as Danton said "De I'audace et toujours de I' audace".Ή (What is lacking in you is the doctor's confidence in guessing at a disease and throwing a medicine at it in the hope that it will stick and cure. But that is not what I mean by the quotation.)
I dreamt that you had come to me for eye treatment, though there was no facial similarity.
If there was no facial similarity, how do you know it was I!
Does it mean that you are still unwell? M. says you walk about with a bandage on.
The eyes are still unready for overstrain, that is all. I suppose they
Ή "De 1'audace, encore de 1'audace, toujours de 1'audace!": Boldness, and again boldness, and always boldness! Page - 186 have erected an automatic self-defence against the Call of correspondence. If you believe all that M's highly wrought poetic imagination conceives!!
D and H are losing their nails perhaps due to their washing work with soda. I have asked them to wash their nails with lemon-water after the work to neutralise the corrosive action.
That ought to stop it. Do they not rinse properly after work? They should do so and rub each finger with the lemon-water. March 23, 1935 As regards S's case, could it have been due to syphilitic gumma in the brain, the symptoms of which were brought out by the exciting cause?
The Surgeon told Pavitra, I think, that even hereditary syphilitic tendency could expose one to the results and 90% (in Europe perhaps India may not yet have caught up in the race) were open to it! Some exaggeration perhaps?
By the way I forgot to mention about your "unbiased intuition" in favour of the fracture of the skull.
I had written not "unbiased" but "unbased" = without any definite ground in apparent facts.
Throughout the day his condition was almost the same, only from 5 6.30 p.m. he was free from any "crise" which, I believe, was due to your Force. If not, we can attribute it to the mercury injection.
Let us hope the credit is due to the treatment, although they say it produces its effects only after a longer time but I have seen that the Force can bring about a quicker action if the remedies are the right ones. But what do you make of the original fall? It struck me at once at the time that it was epileptic, but as nothing seemed to come to Page - 187 support the idea, I dropped it. But when S said there was no giddiness and described the strangling attack on the throat and the movements he made, the epilepsy interpretation came back to me with great force (of course I know nothing about the illness scientifically). Do you consider the fall as an accident? If it was epileptic, the fall with the injury bringing about only the rapid development of the illness and this violent crisis, then what was the cause of the epilepsy? Epilepsy is from the occult point of view a characteristic form of vital inroad, but to take so physical a form a vital inroad must have or create some physical cause as its means or support for its manifestation. If syphilis of brain, tumour, haemorrhage are ruled out by absence of hypertension, what then was the cause, since the fracture or traumatism was not there at the time of the fall? Constitutional disease? What disease would produce the epilepsy? S's movements were often abnormally vehement, a great restlessness was there often and there was the trembling of the limbs. But what disease if constitutional disease there was? SRI AUROBINDO March 24, 1935 Now that the whole show is over with the death of S, I don't know if any purpose will be served in discussing the matter further. Still I cannot but ask some questions. The haemorrhage caused by the fail must have been on the surface...
How is that? One of the tests indicated that the injury was deep down, we were told.
I am upset but perhaps you are slightly upset too and it would be unwise to upset you further by my questions.
No, I am not in the least "upset". I did not expect S to be immortal nor did he expect it himself. In fact the Mother expected him to die before this and it was only his return to the Asram that gave him enough vitality to last longer.
I firmly believed that death was impossible here. Since it has been possible, it means that hostile forces have become victorious. Page - 188 There have been three deaths since the Asram began one, of a child in a house that was not then part of the Asram and the other of a visitor. This is the first death of an Asramite in the Asram itself.
You said, I hear, that you have conquered Death, not only personally, but for others as well.
I am unaware of having made any such statement. To whom did I make it? I have not said even that personally I have conquered it. All these are the usual Asram legends. The conquest of Death would mean the conquest of illness and of the psychological and functional necessity of death of the body that is one of the ideals of the Yoga, but it can be accomplished only if and when the supramental has driven its roots into Matter. All that has been acting here up to now is an Overmind force which is getting gradually supramentalised in parts the utmost that it can do in this respect is to keep death at a distance and that is what has been done. The absence of death in the Asram for so many years has been due to that. But it is not impossible especially when death is accepted. In S's case there was a 5 percent chance of his survival on certain conditions, but he himself knew the difficulty in his case and had prepared himself for his departure from the body. March 25, 1935 It was Y who said to K the other day that Mother told them in an interview that you and Mother have conquered Death, that S needn't die and that even if such a possibility came, if they called you fervently Death would recede.
What the Mother said was that there was no necessity that S should die of the possibility both S and Y knew and if death came, yet if they could call in the force it would have to recede. This was a statement of the principle and it is a thing that has happened to many. It was not an affirmation that S would certainly live. The sadhaks have a habit of turning spiritual truths into crude down- right statements of a miraculous kind which lead to many misunderstandings. Page - 189 About yourself there is already a strong conviction "based on fact" that you have made yourself immortal. On what fact?
In one of your talks in the early days you seem to have acclaimed yourself as immortal except under 3 conditions accident, poison and Ichchha Mrityu.Ή
It must have been a joke taken as a self-acclamation. Or perhaps what I said was that I have the power to overcome illness, but accident and poison and the I. M. still remain as possible means of death. Of course, the Mother and myself have hundreds of times thrown back the forces of illness and death by a slight concentration of force or even a use of will merely.
And just lately I came to know that the first two also have been conquered and the last, Ichchha Mrityu, depends on your Ichchha.
Great heavens, when?
Another conviction which all of us shared is that you could never have any illness; but your "eye", due to whatever cause, has shattered it.
It is long since I have had anything but slight fragments of illness (e.g. sneezes, occasional twitches of rheumatism or neuralgia: but the last is mostly now outside the body and does not penetrate) with the exception of the eye and the throat (only one kind of cough though, the others can't come) which are still vulnerable points. Ah yes, there is also prickly-heat; but that has diminished to almost nothing these last years. There is sometimes an attempt at headache, but it remains above the head, tries to get in and then recedes. Giddiness also the same. I don't just now remember anything else. These are the facts about "having no illness". As for the conclusion, well, you can make a medical one or a Yogic one according to your state of knowledge.
Ή Death by an act of will. Page - 190 You have written that with the growth of the inward consciousness, one can feel the forces of illness coming and if one knows how to stop them one can do so. Then surely you can see what is coming, why don't you prevent it? How does this theory coincide with what you have written namely that illness can be conquered only by the Supramental rooting itself firmly?
Always the same rigid mind that turns everything into a statement of miraculous absoluteness! It is my experience and the Mother's that all illnesses pass through the subtle consciousness and subtle body before they enter the physical. If one is conscious, one can stop it entering the physical, one can develop the power to do so. We have done that millions of times. But that does not mean that every time we will do so. It may come without one's noticing or when one is asleep or through the subconscient or in a sudden rush when one is off one's guard etc., etc. Let us suppose however that I am always on guard, always conscious, even in sleep that does not mean that I am immunised in my very nature from all illness. It only means a power of self-defence against it when it tries to come. Self-defence may become so strong that the body becomes practically immune as many Yogis are. Still the "practically" does not mean "absolutely" for all time. The absoluteness can only come with the supramental change. For below the supramental it is an action of a Force among many forces in the supramental it becomes a law of the nature.
Can the supramental really make immortal a tottering old man, with all his anatomy and physiology pathological ?
Well, don't you know that old men sometimes get a new or third set of teeth in their old age? And if monkey glands can renew functionings and forces and even make hair grow on a bald head, as Voronoff has proved by living examples, well ? And mark that Science is only at the beginning of these experiments. If these possibilities are opening before Science, why should one declare their absolute impossibility by other means? Page - 191 In Yogic SadhanΉ I find that by Yoga every cell in the body can be changed in structure and function; but to expect that in a grand old man well, isn't it too much even for the Yogic Force? Now that the omnipotence of this Force is being questioned, will you kindly write that promised letter "by means of examples" on what Yogic Force can do?
There is a difference between Yogic Force on the mental and inferior planes and the Supramental Nature. What is acquired and held by the Yoga-Force in the mind-and-body consciousness is in the supramental inherent and exists not by achievement but by nature it is self-existent and absolute.² Not now. I am too busy trying to get things done to spend time in getting them written.
Last night I was taking a walk in the yard when I began to feel that it was not I who was doing the walking, but some form which I did not know at all. It seemed to be devoid of much vitality or consciousness. As I came into the area where it was a little darker, the things that were. lying about looked peculiar as if they existed in dreamland, and in the midst of them was this form walking about like one in sleep. Is it all imagination?
It is a very usual experience. It means that for a moment you were no longer in your body, but somehow either above or outside the body consciousness. This sometimes happens by the vital being rising up above the head or, more rarely, by its projecting itself into its own sheath (part of the subtle body) out of the physical attachment. But it also comes by a sudden even if momentary liberation from the identification with the body consciousness, and
Ή A small book written by Sri Aurobindo in an automatic manner in 1911. He did not want it to be included among his works. ² The text of this paragraph is reproduced from the 1st Edition (1969) of Correspondence with Sri Aurobindo. The original version of the paragraph is given below. The changes were probably made by Sri Aurobindo, but no written record of his revision remains. There is a difference between Yogic Force and Supramental Nature. What is acquired and held by Force in the one, becomes inherent in the supramental and exists by nature it becomes self-existent and absolute. Page - 192 this liberation may become frequent and prolonged or permanent. The body is felt as something separate or some small circumstance in the consciousness or as something one carries about with one etc., etc., the exact experience varies. Many sadhaks here have had it. When one is accustomed, the strangeness of it (dreamland etc.) disappears.
I propose to go to the hospital 3 or 4 days in a week, because I think it will help my work. But please don't say later on that I was following closely my predecessor Esculape, in trying to be a big doctor.
Mother fully approves your attending she considers it helpful in many ways. So have no scruples Esculapian or otherwise.
May I use a cycle to go to the hospital?
Where will you keep the cycle there? If there is a safe place, you can have the cycle. March 26, 1935 Excuse my returning to the question of S's death. I would infer from your letter that sufficient force was not called in, so he died.
How could he himself call in or receive and assimilate the force in his body when that body was in fits or unconscious?
From whatever you have said in joke or in earnest, it logically follows that you are immortal. Because if you say that Supramental can alone conquer death, one who has become that is evidently and consequently immortal. So if one is immortal or has conquered death, no poison or accident can affect him.
Your Syllogism is: "One who became supramental, can conquer death. Sri Aurobindo has become supramental Sri Aurobindo has conquered death." 1st premiss right; second premiss premature; conclusion at least Page - 193 premature and in any case excessive, for "can conquer" is turned into "has conquered" is immortal. It is not easy, my dear doctor, to be a logician; the human reasoning animal is always making slight inaccuracies like that in his syllogisms which vitiate the whole reasoning. This might be correct: "One who becomes wholly supramental conquers death Sri Aurobindo is becoming supramental Sri Aurobindo is conquering death." But between "is conquering" and "has conquered" is a big difference. It is all the difference between present and future, logical possibility and logical certitude.
I hope I haven't made a rigid mental conclusion.
The premiss is false. I have never said that I am supramental I have always said that I have achieved the overmind and am bringing down the supramental. That is a process and until the process is complete it cannot be said that "I am supramental". Of course when I say "I" I mean the instrument not the Consciousness above or the Person behind which contain all things in them.
Because you are still subject to eye and throat trouble, would it mean that you haven't yourself conquered death ? If that be so am I to accept that the Supramental hasn't driven its roots into you ?
See above for the answer. Besides, I said "has driven its roots into Matter". Am I "Matter"?
Though you say that Death is possible because illness hasn't been conquered, I take it as a principle. Amal and myself firmly believe that those whom you have accepted, are absolutely immune to death.
[Sri Aurobindo underlined twice "accepted.] Too comfortable a doctrine. It brings in a very tamasic syllogism. "I am accepted by Sri Aurobindo. I am sure of supramentality and immune from death. Therefore I need not do a damned thing. Supramentality will of itself grow in me and I am already immortal, so I have all time and Page - 194 eternity before me for it to happen of itself". Like that, does it sound true?
I was myself going to write to you about Voronoff and rejuvenation. Have you any idea why the monkey-gland is used? I wonder how far the rejuvenating operation is successful.
It is successful partially and for a period one cannot say more than that. But even that rejuvenation for a period is a tremendous progress and how can one say where it will end? As for the monkey, it is because it is nearest to man and at the same time an extremely vital creature, I mean full of vital force. As for the gland, it is because the seat of the physical energy is there which supports and reinforces all the rest. Voronoff' s selection is perfectly logical and intuitive at the same time. What does supramentalisation mean exactly? We know by your own statement that you have achieved that. Is it then supramentalisation in parts? You want transformation of everything mental to physical?
Achieved what? What statement? What are these wild assertions? I spoke of an overmind Force which is getting supramentalised in parts.
Does it mean that some parts of your being are supramental and this physical is not yet supramentalised?
Overmind in process of supramentalisation not supramental.
How can it be possible realisation in parts, in your case?
Why not? Always the idea that there must be an instantaneous absolute miracle or else nothing! What about process in things? You are ignorant of all that is between supreme Spirit and matter, it seems. You know nothing of the occult processes of mind, life and all the rest so you can think only of miraculous divinity or else law of matter as known to Science. But for supramental Spirit Page - 195 to work itself out in matter it must go through a process of transforming the immediate mental, vital and other connections, must it not so why should not the process be in parts? Immortality also can come by parts. First the mental being becomes immortal (not shed and dissolved after death), then the vital, while the physical comes only last. That is a possible evolution, recognised by occult science. March 27, 1935 T's hysteria has put my logic into hysteric fits... She had never had any fits before. It seems she was late for her work, by a few minutes and A gave her a severe rebuke before the other workers. Maybe this is the cause?
She had these fits, but milder, in Gujerat before she came here. Here they did not occur this is the first time and a bad fit at that. She has had very often "fears" and other moods and imaginations which might be of a hysterical character, it is difficult to say.
You will excuse my fear, I hope. But surely if one can be the cause of such a trouble and upset somebody and a lady at that, and in the Asram. in addition to the fact that one has plenty of these, to bear in oneself, I don't know really what could be done. You know, so I leave it to you.
Fear of what? [Underlining "one".] Who is the one? in either case A, you or X in general or in particular? This is very mysterious language can't you be more explicit? March 29, 1935 My logic again, Sir: Sri Aurobindo is bound to become wholly supramental and is being supramentalised in parts. If that is true and it is well, he can't die till he is supramental and once he is so, he is immortal.
It looks very much like a non-sequitur. The first part and the last are all right but the link is fragile. How do you know I won't take a fancy to die in between as a joke? Page - 196 Now, if that is accepted, then those whom you know for certain as would-be supramentals and have been accepted as such, are immortal follows as a corollary.
Again the fallacy comes in in the "would-be". A "supramental" may be immortal but why should a W. S.Ή be immortal?
It may be a "comfortable doctrine" but that's my philosophy of sadhana.. What is the good of the Avatar if we do everything by ourselves ? We have come to you and taken shelter at your feet so that you may, as the Gita says, deliver us from all sins...
But what if the Avatar gets frightened at the prospect of all this hard labour and rushes back scared behind the veil?
After all what's the use of so much austere sadhana? The supramental is bound to come down and we shall lie flat at the gate and he can't pass us by.
[Underlining "he can't pass us by".] Why not? Why can't he float easily over you and leave you lying down or send for the supramental police to chivy you out and make you pass through a hard examination in an Epicurean austerity before you are allowed inside?
This is not really a joke. You may beat me for my semi- Epicurean attitude, but I do believe that those who can stick to the last from Anilbaran to N, will have the supramentalisation.
N also!!! Great illogical heavens! Obviously if N becomes a supramental, everybody can! No doubt about that logic.
You may say that it will be delayed in its descent by our passivistic attitude, as some people say that yourself and the Mother would have been supramentalised long ago if only we had not kept you down. Is it really true? Ή Would-be supramental. Page - 197 I can't say there is no truth in it, but it is not the passivistic attitude that stood in the way. However, "ifs" come to nothing so far as the past is concerned, since the past having been had to be "Ifs" are only of value for the future.
Manubhai (in the smithy) has conjunctivitis.
Manibhai is the Smithy Superintendent Manubhai is the Lord High Gardener. Don't mix men and vowels supramentally like that. March 30, 1935 To my query T said that the trouble is now pain in the lower abdomen. When that pain increases, she goes unconscious. Isn't that mere hysteric auto-suggestion? She used to have these pains before and did not "go unconscious". Or is it brain congestion due to stoppage of the menses?
I gather that she is having periods for the last three days and usually she suffers from pain. For the last three months she had no periods at all. Many of the women here have very fanciful periods but I suppose that is fairly common everywhere. Pavitra has a medicine for blood circulation and regularity of menses. You might ask Pavitra about it. These medicines (he has more than one) are the latest discoveries in Europe of which samples have been sent here.
D is all right. But can you tell me why so many cases have flared up along with my advent ? Are the hostile forces trying to test the capacity of a raw doctor? I have noticed that but am. not yet quite clear as to the cause whether it is a special favour to you or merely a coincidence i.e. you just balled in when these things were due
I am doctoring on others, but there is nobody to doctor on me. When I send my case to the Supreme Doctor, he Page - 198 smiles or keeps silent, or watches and observes, Oh, It is the same complaint. The Force does not "tumble in"; one part wants to be in a flood of energy and work and work, another part inert, obstructive and lethargic. . . Can you diagnose and treat it effectively and in the shortest time? From your answers, I gather that there is no hurry all eternity is before me! Two different personalities standing in the way of each other. No remedy except "harmonisation" and that is usually done by the working of a higher Force which compels the two beggars not to interfere with each other. The business of the patient is to take plenty of doses of the Force. The usual formula (prescription, whatever you like to call it) is "Proceed with as much zeal as if all had to be done in a short fraction of a lifetime and as much patience as if you had all eternity before you." Your two parts ought to arrange that between them one seems to plump for the first course, the other for the all-eternity. A splendid chance for harmonisation. About learning French, wouldn't it be better to drop A' s and C' s classes and ask K to teach me alone for a rapid progress and a better pronunciation, because it seems K' s pronunciation is better. Not better than C's, but good. But the class is not sufficient for going quick. You can ask K.
I asked J to tell me something on occult science, learning that you spoke highly about him. He seems to have some knowledge. He says my mind is not clear but it has strength and my emotional being very good!! All this true? If he knows all this he is wonderful for his age. I should say on the contrary that your mind is very clear (in spite of bad logic); it has strength but a slow deliberate strength. The third statement is correct. He has been learning and experimenting, but is often very hasty in his conclusions.
By the way, none of those perverse "fancies please Page - 199 [vide 30.3.35]. If at all you think of going, let us know beforehand. so that we may disappear before you! Where would be the fun if I told you beforehand? However, I have no bad intentions for the moment. March 31, 1935 Page - 200 |